my apologies to my frens reading it

i noe i've been a little selfish past few days..

1st of all: i pick wad i wan to hear from u all (esp for my christian frens, i've been very picky).. if an advice hurts me, i say i dun wan to listen or talk about it.. yes i noe im acting this way since day 1..

2nd: i noe when some of u come talk to me.. i direct u to my blog.. its not i totally dun wan to repeat myself.. i can repeat to some extent.. but tis blog is REALLY e most indepth of my feelings i can express it in words.. i noe some of u are lazy to read all e texts.. so i wun bother u.. im not in e position to, anyway..

hope u all forgive me, including those who REALLY wanted to giv me advice.. but i didnt allow u to.. i noe tis is very bad of me..

honestly now, i hav to b a little hardened myself.. if i pick to listen all ur advices.. next time u experience e same thing, i will b as frank to u, u will noe how i feel.. but really, im now in e wrong, dun blame urself.. n i cant really be bothered to make myself being open to all right now.. so to Jon-something n Regi-something, yes i dun wan to come.. certain things, i am not bothered to make right of it myself now..

sometimes, i may also judge u all based on e responses u giv.. tis is purely MY fault.. i noe i called some ppl insensitive.. n may I refuse to talk about my life any more to u.. i noe thats my problem..

#1 confession, yup i called some of your concerned advices insensitive.. i stated a few times already.. it doesnt hit me, so i said that

#2 confession, there are a few person i dun feel like telling any more sequels of e event.. bcoz i dun find responses that comfort me.. well, as a 'assurance' its not ppl who talked to me online one.. these ppl i only told in real life.. so i dun tink any of u reading tis blog will hav to concern yourselves about it..

as i said, sorry i cant fully correct myself.. i can b evil sometimes.. jus that im telling u all, yes i am a bad person in tis aspect i will see how i can correct tis aspect..

so, as being still in e wrong, i hav nothing else to add but sorry to all again.. and thanks for reading this blog.. it means really alot to me.. when i really desperately wan my frens to noe how im feeling right now..



in fact, if next time any of my frens tio e same thing, i dun even noe whether i can return them e care i received tis time anot.. from MSheep, one of my sec sch frens.. in fact, as u noe i dun read blogs.. i already find myself owing a favour not reading YOUR blog.. so nxt time i will try to read ur blogs haha..