Reflection of a boring day

Kyo wa march no ichi jyu kyu, ni sen nana

19th march 2007



today is a really boring day.. what can i learn from a day i really did nothing?
let me describe my day without storytelling

i woke up.. mourned for a while (each time it hurts, i make sure i try to cry).. a few minutes.. then go brush teeth..

watch tv read comic watch tv read comic..

spend so much money on lunch

go home do the same thing.. i type my lame story on tis blog.. i surf forums

i really trying to think of something to do..

then i slept.. 1 hr n 30 mins.. then woke up.. now 8pm already.. then go down eat dinner..

when i eating dinner.. as i eat my icy ice kachang..
the quiet sensation.. i tot of alot of things again... why did i waste this day..

i cry out within my heart to God and to her.. am i losing everything i said yesterday?

is my vision really that limited..

i went home... waste even more time (surf forum, surf around) for 2 hours.. now is nearing 11pm liao..

the wierd pain still crept within me.. it isn't pain, but it's not getting away... i really wanted to cry my heart out..

so i lie down on my bed.. i close my eyes.. feel the things around me.. i prayed la.. i decided to do wad i did again.. cry out loud within my heart..

i felt this was something i need to learn.. what I told myself yesterday, walking each day knowing im walking nearer to death.. today i really lost that vision.. i prayed to keep that vision in my heart.. to feel heaven near me.. i feel thats what i need to learn.. its so easy to lose my vision..
i prayed for God to keep my vision.. i took out her article look at her photo once again.. for quite a while.. i don't want to waste my time on earth.



:)

seeing is not everything in life.