A Relapse (Wallow in Self Pity)

location: my bedroom
music: Mou Sukoushi : Her favourite song
date: 17 march 2007 2.30 am


this is an indescribable torment
i shouted her name again and again
i really wanted to go back into crying again, but tears couldn't come out
my heart felt pain

i lie there (on my bed) in self pity
i felt my pain crawling through my body
yet theres nothing i can do to feel the pain physically
its mental
this is torture

i told many times "i am so sad" to plain air
so many times
i feel internally comfort coming
but nothing could do to ease the reality
i really wanted to go to heaven already









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i really hav to type this out
good bye