My own personal Good Friday to Easter Sunday

seriously, I totally didn't feel like celebrating Good Friday..

One is I want to play..

but the second more minor reason is, I really don't FEEL like celebrating.. (anyways good fridays are for mournings ba) why Jesus get to resurrect my fren don't?

In fact i read news.. 2 boys discovered drowned... thought about the mazda salesgirl incident.. also read about the 2 year 10 months old girl who also died..

why should I rejoice.. tell me.. so many ppl died innocently and young.. there are people who want to die, but yet they don't. Why?

Be frank, I hate God at that moment of time.. why this kind of stuff man!! THIS IS INJUSTICE!!

If I were God, I wouldn't have grant them death.


No wonder so many people don't believe in Christianity. Does the world look fair as if there's a God of Love who actually rules over everything?



anyway, thats my honest thought.. well I don't want to argue with people either.. Indeed I'm just pointing out.. Basically friday night I cried and was very angry at God for all these people's deaths..

saturday, i stayed at home and did nothing. except I watched death note all the way till sunday 7am.. enforce all my anger even more (bcoz DEATH note.. haha)


so sunday.. easter sunday.. my parents told me I have to go to my relative's house.. ok lor..
then they say have to go the bishan temple first.. k lor follow them.. i felt totally wrong because its easter sunday.. should be for Jesus resurrection instead of going to buddhist temple.. well dun care.. just went


then i suddenly recalled that the temple was quite near her funeral.. so took my chance.. i called rh's mum and ask her was her tablet at the bishan temple? "Yes.." ok good so I went to find it..


then saw her slightly smiling picture at one of the slots.. I stood there a very long time.. I also prayed in christian way... then I went back.. then went relative house..

I came home.. reminded of all i've done in the morning.. standing in front of her picture.. praying.. I don't know what to feel now.. I'm so confused and sad.. so I just decided to try talking to her again..

then I felt like keeping all these conversations.. I took my pen and a few sheets of paper.. I placed her photograph in front of me.. (refer to my other blog)



after i finished.. wow i feel way way better.. it's much easier than i thought.. much better than talking in the mind.. i could now see my words (and her words) in physical ink.. hahaz